Linda Tran

Today was a rough day. By rough, I meant I was on a verge of a huge breakdown. I do consider myself a very strong person, I usually don't care what others think and I am pretty opinionated. I live a pretty carefree life - a great job, a wonderful family and friends everyone would dream of calling their own. Today however, was different. It's been a while since I've felt this way. It was an ongoing battling with myself from start to finish today. I know I shouldn't be complaining because I have a million things to be grateful for but today, I was a wreck.

For as long as I could remember, I would always have issues with my body. Random tumor growths, internal bleeding issues, surgery after surgery by the time I hit puberty all the medical issues slowly changed into psychological issues. I know I should be happy with my body, I know so many people would love to have my body but lately I have been feeling like I am losing control of my body. I can't work out because of my knee, I can't relieve stress with jogging once again because of my knee. I know I've gained weight and I should be happy for finally reaching a healthy weight but deep inside I am just never satisfied. I hope this is all a phase, I really do because the thoughts running through my head are scaring me.

All I know is: today was a bad day and tomorrow is going to be a new day. Everything is going to be okay. Just breathe and everything is going to be okay.