* The ancestor of every action is a thought.
Sunday, April 18, 2010 __ *Thank Me.
Its interesting how people can walk in and out of your life so fast. Your first love becomes a distance memory and the friends you considered your best friends become strangers. I consider myself pretty lucky to have surrounded myself with the same group of friends for the past 10 years. This weekend, we had a wonderful dinner and reflected on the past couple of years. All I did was sit there and soaked it all in. We may be at different stages in our life right now but there are still some things that haven't changed at all. I asked the question: where will we be in 5 years? To be honest, it doesn't matter because I know that in 5 years, we will still be laughing together. Lately, life has been really good. I've been taking really good care of myself. Usually I am so dependent on others for happiness but for the last 2 months, I've grown quite a bit. I realized there's bigger things to chase after and if things are meant to be than so be it. I guess I took this time for myself to reconnect with people I want to have beside me forever.

Sometimes, there are people you meet out there that you just CLICK with. Regardless of the time span of your conversations or what-nots, it seems like everything just fits perfectly. For the past 5 years, my life pretty much revolved around relationships. I worked hard at being a good girlfriend and not so much at being a great friend. I guess, there is a change in tide now.

Life is pretty much a balancing act - friends, relationships, family, school and work. It gets a bit overwhelming at times. Sometimes, I cut corners and forget to give each category the same amount of time and effort. However, lately it seems like I am getting a little better even since I started living with the mentality that I should not settle. I am staying true to who I am for once.

The last couple of weeks have been remarkable. I have been eating and sleeping better. There's a spring in my step and oddly, there is always a smile on my face. I can't really remember the last time I was so at peace with myself.

Usually, I would thank a certain person for all my happiness but really, I have no one else to thank but myself. I opened myself up, took risks, made my own decisions, decided my own path. So, I deserve all of this. I worked hard for this. I am not going to sabotage my own happiness any longer. I am doing ME and it's working better than I ever thought.

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I can't wait for summer.
We are going to do it up BIG.

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Thanks Joanne & Maina - for moments of doubt, you smacked some sense into me.



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Linda Tran
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*overly complex
*always making it happen
*forever a believer

Words of Wisdom
"I walked a mile with Pleasure;
She chatted all the way;
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne’er a word said she;
But, oh! The things I learned from her,
When sorrow walked with me."

-Robert Browning Hamilton