Seems like I have been taking a hiatus from blogging but for the past couple of weeks a lot of things happened. With these changes, it seems like everything is coming out the other end better. I had to do a lot of reflecting and asking myself what I really wanted in life. I told myself countless times that I should never ever settle ever again. I have been searching for something grand, something great and life changing but then it felt like lightning struck me. Perhaps, I shouldn't be out searching for something grand, perhaps I should make myself the person that I always wanted in others. Sometimes, it seems like I have such high expectations of people and when these expectations are not met, I consider them not worthy of my time. However, I look at myself in the mirror and realized that I have been hypocritical because I can't even reach my own expectations.
I never ever considered myself perfect because I am far from. Yet, it seems like I always sabotage certain relationships. I shouldn't always look at the negative side of people because lately, I have been screwing up a lot.
What I am trying is say is that, everyone has certain expectations of how a friend should act or how a lover should behave. But, instead of being disappointed, perhaps we should really look at ourselves in the mirror and think - do we measure up to their expectations too? Probably not. So, with this lesson learnt, I am going to learn to see the greatness in myself instead of searching for it in others. Perhaps then, without asking, greatness will find me.