How would I describe myself?
What makes me, me?
What is my personality like?
It seems like every year I have this revelation, I hit some type of stage of enlightenment to who I am and why I stand for the things I do. However, every single year I look back and I am shocked and amazed at my former self. I am shocked at the mistakes I've made, the steps I've taken and why I continue to make the same mistakes over and over again. Instead of figuring out who I am, I look to those close to me to define who I am. How am I portrayed in their eyes. How does the world see me. How is my identity reflective of all the achievements I've made thus far? I am a good person. I have my head on right. I am perfect the way I am - flaws and all. This is what I have to accept.
Every year, I hit a roadblock. During these moments, I feel inadequate and stuck. I admit I get over-dramatic sometimes and I usually declare that my world is coming to an end but so what? My roadblock this year is the same as all the years prior - what's next? What is my next move? What are my future plans? So, my new thing is:
breathe
let it go
move on
push forward
& stop planning.
If things are meant to happen - it will. I am destined to be someone. I just need it to COME to ME instead of running around like a headless chicken.