There are times, I just want to hold my breath and wish for all the bad things to go away. I close my eyes and wish that I won't go crazy. Then, there are days that I wish would never end and I realize that if I just breath everything will be okay. What's the point of looking back every step I take? That's completely counter-productive. Today, I must learn to change my old habits. What lies behind me is nothing but memories, good or bad they are JUST memories. What's in-front of me, that's what I should look forward to. Those are the days that are going to be the good ones. I'm starting anew. I'm not going to be that "what-if" girl anymore because I know if I remain the same, I'm going to lose everything that's good in my life right now. It's time to focus on something new. It's time for me to start building towards something slowly and surely instead of running full steam again without thinking of the consequences. Truthfully, there are days I am not doing okay but for the past couple of days, I realized I should be more grateful for all the things I have in my life. I know I'll be more than okay eventually. I will try and make life less complicated. I know I'll be happier than I would ever thought I could be. I just need time.