Honestly, at the root of every relationship either intimate or friendship is a foundation of trust and love. There are times that we are tested but after each struggle, if it's really meant to be, each relationship should come out stronger and better. Looking back, I may haven't been the best friend, girlfriend, sister or daughter but I knew that at every given moment, I will always give it my all. I will persevere and never give up because I know that no matter how hard the rain falls, eventually it will stop.
The last couple of weeks, my faith has been tested. Finally, I am not that bird with the wounded wing anymore. Finally, I can be a pillar. I remember, every single time I fell, there was always someone to catch me. I have been so fortunate to have such strong people beside me to hold me up when I felt like giving up. I reflect now, on the past 10 years.. during those years, honestly, I would be constantly lending on someone. Never was I strong enough to stand tall and independent. But, today as I walked down the streets of the core of the city, I realized..it's time for me to be that strength, the brick wall. I want to do this not just for my friends, but for my siblings.
I want them to look up to me and learn to be strong and independent people. I look at my little sister, she's so young but wise beyond her years and I wonder is this because did she learn from seeing me fall every time, did she learn to be this strong because I was so weak back then? I remember, those nights 3 years ago...holding the phone and crying and now she tells me, her ear was always pressed against the wall listening. That is not the kind of legacy I want her to remember of me. I want her to see me as a strong woman that knows what she wants and never afraid to get it. I want her to know, that no one should have control of your life...you are your own destiny.
I guess what I am trying to say is, I finally found myself. It took me long enough and it took so many pit stops and pitfalls to get here. To simply state it, I am happy, truly happy. All I can do now is look forward. I have everything I ever wanted - Trust, Contentment, Peace of mind and heart, Respect and most importantly..Love.
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I almost forgot. This is long overdue!
Congratulations to Keith "Morpheus" Chiu along side with the APDs, Jason "Chimera" Lau & Kevin "Firefox" Hung for crossing an amazing group of 8 Etas! I am so proud of you guys, your fraternity is growing so fast. Next thing you know, you will be in the TRIPLE digits. Congrats to the Etas for crossing!! I am so happy for you guys!! Looking forward to seeing your showcase at installs this year.
Introducing the newest brothers of Lambda Phi Epsilon, ETA class:
#56 - Nathan "G.T.A." Mendoza
#57 - Alex "Hamburglar" Chan
#58 - Jonathan "Ghostface" Wong
#59 - Luu "Feint" Nguyen
#60 - Steve "Aftermath" Liu
#61 - Keita "Xero" Kibe
#62 - Mike "Half-Time" Lee
#63 - James "Kingpin" Demir