Sometimes, even when you are surrounded by people who love you, you still manage to feel so alone and misunderstood. I've been going through another 'depression' spell and somehow this time it feels different. I can't really put my finger on what's wrong. From an outsiders' point of view, my life could be seen as perfect - a loving family, a wonderful boyfriend, good health etc. But lately, I've been so unsatisfied. Days pass, moments just fly by and somehow I feel like I am just standing still. I've been staying up until the break of dawn just thinking mostly about life. Where am I headed? Where do I really want to be? How can I convince that I should be happy? I know all the facts, I just wish I could see it with my own eyes instead of someone telling me how lucky I am.